For the last month or two, maybe a little longer, I have been feeling a little “off”. I have not been able to put my finger on why, and no amount of time in nature, with my little man or alone, journaling or meditating has brought any relief to this feeling.
Last week out of nowhere I got the sudden urge to simplify. I like to think we lead a pretty simple life. We don’t have a lot of “stuff”. And I am not one to let things pile up. So this urge was kinda strange. But I went with it. I made a list, if you didn’t know this about me, I am a list maker. I listed what I felt needed to be simplified in our home and got started. I will slowly work on this throughout the month on rainy days and moments of free time.
You may be wondering what this has to do with change. Well I had an appointment with my therapist on Friday. Annette is an amazing healer with a range of modalities to work with including massage, acupuncture, osteopathy, cranial-sacral and energy work. I should say I have not seen Annette in four years. The last time I saw her for a treatment was when I was pregnant with Reece and was seeing her for some acupuncture. Our paths did cross after Reece was born when she did some osteopathic work and cranial-sacral with Reece in the months following his birth.
I happened to run into her a few weeks ago and mentioned I needed to come in and see her. I really do believe there are no coincidences, everything happens for a reason. So I booked an appointment with Annette. During our conversation before she began our session she asked why I was there. I mentioned the fact that I have felt “off balance” for a while and just can’t seem to shake it. She asked a few more questions and I mentioned my sudden urge to clean out our home and simplify it more than it already is. Her response: “you are getting ready for something. You are clearing out the old to make room for the new.” Hmmmm...she could be on to something I thought. So we explored that a little more, but couldn’t really come up with what this change might be. We tried to connect it to my doula training, my nutrition business, even changes happening within our family, but nothing really connected.
So, I hopped onto her table and she began to take a look at what might be going on physically. It turns out I was completely out of alignment. My whole right side from my ankle through my pelvis to my neck was out of alignment. No wonder I had been feeling a little off.
I relaxed in Annette’s healing hands for an hour. It was amazing and although I still have the urge to purge and am still feeling a little unsettled, I do feel a little more balanced. And now I am sitting back and waiting, open to the possibilities the Universe has in store for me.
Change is good.
“All great changes are preceded by chaos.”