Thursday, March 26, 2015

Off the Needles











It came off the needles almost a month ago, and judging by the many times I have worn, yes, I do indeed love my February Lady Sweater.

This was a top down knit, with a lovely repetitive pattern that was easy to memorize. I loved knitting it, and love wearing it even more. There will definitely be another in my future.

Monday, March 23, 2015

A Sure Sign of Spring


Eggs!!! The ladies are doing their thing again, and we couldn't be happier. It is so lovely to walk out to the coop in the morning and gather fresh eggs for breakfast.

Saturday, March 21, 2015

12/52

"A photo of my little man, once a week, every week, in 2015"
 
Reece, after spending most of the day outside, celebrating the arrival of spring, you came in from the mailbox with a big smile. Your magazine had arrived. As I put the kettle on, you settled in on your bed, flipping through the pages, lost in your own world, I am not even sure you head the click of my camera. This week you have shown great interest in learning to read. You have been copying words, and asking us what they say. You look at books, point at words, and wonder what they are. It is amazing to witness, to see you moving along your path, learning and growing, in your own way, and in your own time.

Joining Jodi for the 52 Project

Friday, March 20, 2015

Hello Spring

 The last winter sunset!

It's here!

I love winter, I do, but spring, spring holds a special place in my heart. There is a certain kind of magic this time of year as the world awakens around us, bringing with it so many gifts. The anticipation has been building in me for weeks now, and today we can finally celebrate.

For the last week, each night before bed, Reece and I have been reading The Story of The Root Children, as we await the arrival of spring. This morning, with much anticipation, Reece will awaken to a few little gifts from The Root Children, a tradition we started three years ago. After breakfast we will hit the woods, taking with us some bird seed to feed our feathered friends, and maybe a few chipmunks, if they have awakened from their winter nap. We will return home for lunch, and then spend the afternoon outside. The outdoor fire pit will be burning, and the wood stove in our cottage, known as the "sugar shack" this time of year, will be roaring gently as we boil down the first of our sap. Hands will reach into the soil, planting seeds, as well as hope, because this time of year is filled with hope. And magic. Yes, magic.

In the weeks to come, the final bit of snow will melt, sprouts will begin to pop up from the ground, the temperatures will warm up, the days will get longer, a meal or two might be enjoyed outside on the back deck, and the first wild foods from the forest floor will be collected. It is, without a doubt, a wonderful time of year.

Bring it on spring, I am so ready!

*****

Thank you so very much for all of the birthday wishes yesterday, from comments on yesterday's post, to emails, and even a few cards. Big, big hugs to you, my blog friends, you make the world feel much smaller than it really is.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Celebrating


The last two years I celebrated my birthday on the beach, sand between my toes, the ocean singing me a sweet song, as the waves crashed against the beach. It was wonderful, and I thought this year I would be celebrating the same way, but a few things changed, and this year, I am home to celebrate my birthday.

But, and there is a huge but, there is something quite special about this birthday. Today I will be taking a short drive to meet up with a friend. A friend who lives in the UK, but is here visiting her family for the week. Yes, the week of my birthday! Can you believe it?

I met Renee through this space about three years ago. At first it was the usual blog friendship, reading and commenting on each others posts, sharing a few emails, and slowly learning a little more about each other. All of that changed on New Year's Eve 2012 when Renee emailed me asking if I would like to be her gratitude buddy for 2013. Basically, it was a pretty simple concept, hook up with a friend and each night send each other a list of the things you are grateful for from your day. Of course I said yes.

Our first emails were pretty simple, a list of our gratitude, and a short little note. As you can imagine, it only grew from there, and before I knew it Renee had become a friend, a true friend. Over the last two and half years Renee and I have continued our gratitude lists, missing only a handful here and there when one of us is without computer access when on vacation. I have cried many times writing to her, and reading her emails, both of us sharing parts of our days that challenge us, stretch us, and force us to grow and change. And sometimes the tears are happy tears, as we succeed in some small way in our lives, and we celebrate it with each other.

I had the pleasure of meeting Renee in person two years ago. She was here visiting family, and we met for lunch with our kiddos, and Renee's hubby. As you can imagine it was wonderful, finally sitting down in person, enjoying a meal together, and a cup of tea, just like "real" friends. When she emailed me a few months ago with her plans for a spring visit I couldn't wait, but then to find out she would be here for my birthday, well, it made my day!

And so today, Justin and Reece will give me the most amazing gift, a day with Renee. While they stay home, enjoying some father and son time, I will hop in the car and make the short 90 minute drive to meet up with Renee. We have plans to enjoy many cups of tea, while chatting away, most likely completely oblivious to the world around us, there will be a stop at Whole Foods to grab some lunch, and then I am guessing, more tea and chatting, soaking up every minute we have together.

As I celebrate 43 trips around the sun, I also celebrate a wonderful friendship that has grown because I took a big step and hit publish in this space four years ago. This space has given me so much over the years, but one of the most wonderful things has been my relationship with Renee. Here's to a day of celebrating, not only my birthday, but our friendship.

Monday, March 16, 2015

Finding His Way



My little man has been slowly moving through the beginning of the six/seven transformation over the last ten months. I shared a little bit about our experience with this change when it began last May, and since then have been witnessing the amazing transformation of my little man. It hasn't been an easy road, there have been bumps along the way, but slowly we have both found our footing in this new "normal".

As I mentioned in the previous post, this is a transformation on many different levels. His body is changing, his consciousness is changing, and his connection to his world is changing, and with all of those changes comes confusion, and frustration. When we first started moving through this change, the initial shift was emotional. Reece grew frustrated more easily, he began to express his displeasure in more meaningful ways to us, and overall, there just seemed to be a deep confusion in him about all that was happening. The only thing I knew to do through all of this was to breathe deep, be patient, be there when he needed me, hold his hand when he reached for mine, and remain a solid foundation in which he could return to time and time again when he felt things weren't as they should be.

I would love to say I have been the picture of calm and patience every day, but I can't. I am human, and I freely admit my flaws. There were nights, once he was tucked in bed, that I sat and wondered just what happened to the day, how we got so off track, and disconnected, and questioned my confidence in this role of mother. Then a new day would dawn, and we would try again, and again. And slowly, but surely we have been finding our way through this change.

While we experienced many of the emotional changes early, the last few months have been filled with physical growth, and a gaining of independence that has me wondering some days just who this little man is. He is stretching up, thinning and lengthening, his facial features are changing, his teeth are falling out, and the gains in his coordination, and strength have been incredible. While just a few months ago he had no interest in staying anywhere on his own, he now asks to visit his nana and papa, and requests that I leave. He has had a fear of putting his head in the water, and while in Myrtle Beach became a fish in a matter of minutes. Not only putting his head under the water, but swimming underwater the entire length of the pool, many, many times. Bedtimes used to mean me laying and snuggling with him til he fell asleep, and now after we read and snuggle he tells me to go and have a cup of tea and read my book or knit.

While none of this is easy on my mama heart, I have to admit it is pretty darn amazing to witness, and to watch as he grows, and changes, and discovers who he is, and his place in this world. Over the years I have been criticized more than I care to admit for many things....nursing Reece til he was five and half, co-sleeping, not letting him cry it out, not leaving him with others when he didn't want to stay, not forcing him to do things he didn't want to do, not toilet training him, and so on. Through all of it, I listened to my gut, I believed in Reece, and I trusted that when he was ready to do these things, he would let me know, and he would do them. The last few months have shown me that I was right. My little man is on his journey, and I am here to share it with him, and to help him discover who he is. He doesn't need me to push him along his path, he needs me to stand beside him, holding his hand and enjoying the ride with him.

We are not through the six/seven transformation yet, and I know there will be many more bumps along the road now, and in the future, but this transformation, and my journey through motherhood thus far, have given me the confidence and trust to keep mothering my little man as I have been, letting him lead the way, trusting the path he chooses to walk, and remaining a strong and solid foundation in which he can return to whenever he needs.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

11/52

"A photo of my little man, once a week, every week, in 2015"
 
Reece, as your dad and I walk up the road on our after dinner walks, you hop on your scooter and speed ahead. You stop regularly, and turn back to look at us, and your face just shines with joy.

Joining Jodi for the 52 Project