Monday, February 22, 2016

Lucky









There is not a day, not one day, that I don’t wake up feeling lucky. I know that might sound strange, but it is true. Every day as I open my eyes and I look over at the beautiful sleeping boy beside me I feel lucky. Lucky to be a mother, lucky to be the one he chose, lucky to walk his path with him, side by side, hand in hand. Our days together make my heart happy, and when he laughs, goodness I think my heart might burst. His smile lights up his face, and his eyes, oh his eyes, they say so much, and have the ability to look deep inside my soul. He is so full of life right now, every bit of him vibrating with energy that fills a room. He is eager to learn, taking on more responsibility, and slowly growing into an amazing young man.  

Now don’t get me wrong, we do have our off moments, when we are both tugging at opposite ends of the rope, trying hard to meet in the middle and not succeeding. Those moments are tough, but they are also the ones that teach both of us the most, about ourselves and each other. You see I had no idea how to be a mother when Reece came into my life, I mean no idea. Yes, I had a wonderful mother, and I had watched many mothers over the years, but nothing prepares you for the actual moment when that baby is placed in your arms and you become a mother. But Reece has been my guide, showing me what he needs, and how best to care for him. At times I feel like I don’t live up to what he needs, I think that is common on this mothering journey. I question, sometimes more than I should, my capacity to be the mother he truly needs. But at the end of the day, when we snuggle into bed to read, and to go over our day, sharing our best and not so best moments, and I watch as he slowly, peacefully drifts off to sleep, it is then, right at the moment when his eyes get heavy, and his breathing changes, right then, that I know I am doing okay.

I am lucky to be a mother, lucky to call this amazing little man my son, and so very lucky to witness the amazing journey he is on, by his side, cheering him on, watching, with pride and so much love, as he changes and grows before my eyes.

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  1. A beautiful post Kim. So much of this resonates with me.

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  2. Motherhood is one of the most rewarding, yet sometimes one of the hardest things. Some days seem like a breeze and other's I question every decision I make/made. In the end it is absolutely wonderful though to watch them grow into their own person.

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    1. Oh, it is Anke. That questioning is hard, and I often wonder how I can go from having a great mothering day, to a day where nothing seems to go right. The ebb and flow I guess.

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  3. It is the same for me my friend ... I found a little of myself in your words as often. xo

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    1. We are kindred spirits my friend, and one day I hope we get to have a cup of tea, I think we would have so much to chat about. xo

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  4. Beautiful! I feel the same. So very, very in awe of my young adults now.
    It has been wonderful having the honour of watching Reece grow from afar. Thank you.

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    1. I can only imagine that feeling Leisa. Thank you for following along :)

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  5. It's not always easy to remember how lucky we are to be sharing this path with our children. But I am often reminded when visiting your space :)

    That long haired boy is loving those puddles!

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    1. Aw, thank you my friend. I am honoured to share this path with Reece, it is amazing and filled with so much joy.

      He certainly is, he had a blast :)

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  6. I can't believe how old he is getting! Such a sweet post.

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    1. Thanks Carlin. And yes, he is growing by leaps and bounds and changing before my eyes. Incredible!

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  7. Yes, to this. All this! Your words resonate deeply with my soul, dear friend, as they are often my own thoughts and feeling as well about this amazing motherhood journey! xo

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    1. Thank you my friend. It is a pretty awesome journey, and I love knowing that we are on similar paths. xo

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  8. We mothers are all lucky aren't we? I love his smile and his spirit that you capture with your photography!

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    1. We certainly are! Aw, thanks Karen.

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  9. Beautiful post and YES...you and Reece are both blessed to have each other!!!

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  10. So beautiful Kim. We are so lucky. Sometimes it can be harder to see it than other times, but it is so very true! xo

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  11. He seems like such a sweet kid, and I know you're doing the best you can for both of you. It feels good to soak up and document the moments where everything is going right because we can look back on them when we're at odds.

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    1. He is Darcel. I lucked out big time :)

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  12. Lovely and sweet. He's lucky to have you for a mom.

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  13. I like you description of how his energy fills the room. :) It's like seeing happy flowers. He's lucky to have you too! :)

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    1. Thanks KC. His energy right now is amazing, so full of life and such a zest for the every day. It is awesome!

      Aw, thanks. xo

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  14. Oh how I know what you are feeling. Beautiful! We are so lucky and blessed.

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    1. Thanks Jen! I somehow knew you would totally understand.

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  15. This words are so inspiring to me Kim..in these last days of my pregnancy I often wonder:what kind of mother would I be? I will be able to understand my child and give him what he needs?
    But then I think:he will be my guide. We will learn togheter!

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    1. Oh my friend, I have been thinking about you, and knitting for that beautiful boy you will welcome soon. I am so excited for you. You are going to be an awesome mother, and you are right, you will learn, and grow together. It is one amazing journey and I can't wait to hear about it.

      Much love to you in these final days my friend. I am sending you lots of love and happy labouring vibes. xo

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  16. Motherhood is such an amazing journey isn't it? Definitely very lucky here too :)

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