Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Reflecting on the Darkness


Happy New Year!!! I hope you all had a wonderful time welcoming 2017, and are now settling in to this new year with an open heart, ready for what awaits you.

Around here I have spent quite a bit of time reflecting on the year that was, the year that marks the most difficult of my life. I have not shared any of the darkness that this year brought for many reasons, but the main reason was I didn't want to give it a voice in this space that brings me so much joy, and connects me to so many wonderful people. It was a hard year my friends, but as I sat reflecting over the last few weeks the darkness wasn't at the forefront, not at all, what kept coming back to me were the beautiful highlights of a year full of never ending love and support. You see every time a little darkness reared it's head my tribe of women and my family stepped right up, without hesitation, and lifted me up. Every single time.

Hugs, shoulders to cry on, someone to cry with, texts, love bombs, flowers, meals, someone to talk to, someone to watch my little man so I could squeeze in a little mama time, and so much more. These beautiful women along with my family, stepped up in so many ways to love and support me. When I look back over the year, I am amazed, and my heart lights up with love and gratitude.

It's that light that crowds out the darkness. It's that light that guides me forward on this journey. It's that light that reminds me that I am strong. It's that light that calls to me to continue to work towards my dreams and goals. It's that light that makes it possible for me to get up every day, and start fresh with a positive attitude. My tribe and my family are there by my side when I need them, but what they don't realize is that they are there in my heart every single moment, lighting me up and helping me find the magic in every single day.

So, yes, it's been a hard and difficult path this year, but it doesn't feel that way. Instead it feels like a beautiful journey, speckled with bits of darkness, that were easily wiped away with the love and support of my tribe and my family. I am forever grateful to have them all in my life, and appreciate beyond words how much they have all done, not only for me, but also for my little man, this year.

15 comments:

  1. Lots of love and light, my best wishes.
    Luisa

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  2. I'm like you in that I do not write much about sadness or challenges on my blog as well. I love that my space is full of positive thoughts. I admire your resolve and your strength :) Happy new year!!

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    1. Thank you Karen, that means a lot. xo

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  3. You are such an inspiring woman. I think that your great ability to seek out the light has much to do with why you always find it. I hope my sister begins to read your blog. She is going through a similar struggle and would be inspired by your strength. I am so excited for 2017. It is going to be a wonderful year!

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    1. Oh Jenny, your comment is bringing tears to my eyes. Thank you for your very kind words. I hope she reads it too, always here in this space and available via email is she needs to chat.

      I am excited for 2017 too, I decided a few weeks ago that it is going to be ridiculously amazing!

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  4. Hugs and much love to you, Kim. I am so glad you have been able to see and feel the light in spite of the darkness. I wish you a happy and healing 2017.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words Jennifer. It hasn't always been easy, and I am so very grateful for those that lifted me up, and shared their light with me.

      Happy new year to you and your family. xo

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  5. Happy new year. I understand what you mean about the darkness and yet wanting to keep your writing space positive. It is a more healing place then to go to to write, for me anyways when I go to mine. I so appreciate though that you do share bits of your hard times. Then we all know we're not alone. Thank you for your inspiration!

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    1. I think that is the most important thing...knowing we are not alone. While I don't feel comfortable sharing the exact details of the darkness, sharing that it has effected me, and that it has been a tough road this year is true to my story at the moment and it feels good to share it. Life isn't all sunshine and rainbows, and we often learn the most from those darker times.

      Thank you for reading my friend. xo

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  6. Oh how I wish I could've done so much more! And I am grateful each day when I think of the light you are surrounded with. But you have found that light within yourself as well, and it radiates out to all of us. I hope this year there is a bit more ease for you and dear Reece.

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    1. Oh my dear friend, you did so much for me, more than you know. Having you in my corner even from a distance was soul filling for me, and warmed my heart so much.

      Thank you for your kind words. I too hope the same for the year ahead, and I am taking all the steps necessary to ensure it is that way.

      Hugs my friend, I can't wait for the day we sit down in person to share a cup of tea and conversation. Gonna be a highlight for me. xo

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  7. Happy New Year Kim <3
    Here's to 2017 being full of a rest from some of the darkness. xo

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    1. Aw, thank you Carlin. Happy New Year to you too!!!!

      All the best to you and your family. I hope 2017 is amazing for all of you. xo

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